I'm sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I was out of town for 2 weeks and before that, Bear and I had a few life changes. One of the life changes involved deciding between foster kids OR biological kids. I do have to confess that in previous posts I said what was wrong with my uterus could not be fixed with surgery. The truth is, it CAN be fixed with a very simple surgery, but until last week, my husband and I felt the surgery would not be right for us. We thought it would be too expensive, it might not work and we have a few family traits we didn't want to pass down. With all this stacked against the surgery, we took it off the table as an impossibility for me. It felt like there was no hope of having biological children.
With one of the life changes that happened 2 weeks ago, my husband told me that he was ready for me to get my surgery and for us to try for biological children. He had secretly been saving money for my surgery in case we changed our minds. I was thrilled to hear this!!!! I have been waiting for over THREE DECADES to be a mother, to hold MY child in my arms. It was a COMPLETE DREAM COME TRUE to hear those words coming from my husband.
There is a problem though. My husband doesn't want to get overwhelmed with having too many children at once so he wants us to focus on just biological children for right now. I am a bit upset with this news. This is the 2nd time we have backed out of fostering and I feel like we are letting so many people down. The agency who have put so much time and effort into Husband and I I'm sure will feel let down. The children waiting for families who don't care about biology need us. My heart is breaking thinking about it. I worry about the surgery not working and I still lose babies. What happens than????? We won't get a 3rd chance for fostering. I just don't know what to do????
Do we choose surgery and biological children OR back to fostering?????
